My Life Story; Episode 10
The car previously packed behind us overtook, and sped off. Sarah and Hannah waved me from the back seat as they drove out of sight. Where they were heading to, I had no idea. I didn’t know where I was going either, but I was so convinced I would have fun. The engines started and we drove off.
“You must be starved, should we get something to eat?” Matthew asked as he slowed down to take a left turn into a street leading to a restaurant within the neighbourhood. I nodded in agreement. We drove a little further, and Matthew pulled up in front of the restaurant.
“Wait here let me get us something to eat.” He alighted and walked inside. I slumped into the seat and started playing with my phone. I pinged Sarah and Hannah to find out where they were headed. The replies came in fast. Just like me, both of them had no idea where they were going. They just wanted to have fun, that is what everything was about. I easily excused myself, thinking that I was somehow different from them. I was here because I ‘loved’ Matthew. Well, at least I felt strongly for him and wanted to make him happy. I spotted him coming out of the restaurant with two white customised nylon in his hands. He was walking as fast as his legs could carry.
“Good to go, later” I hurriedly texted Hannah.
“Okay, make sure you play safe, I no wan hear story later oh.” She replied almost immediately. I smiled to myself and tuck away the phone, as Matthew joined me in the car. He started the engine, and our journey continued.
We entered a surrounding that seemed familiar to me, then I realised we were heading to his hostel. I was neither scared nor worried. I thought I was ready for anything that could happen. Sarah has assured me this is the only way to win a guy’s heart forever and am not ready to loose him yet.
We arrived at his hostel, the compound was just the way it was when I last visited, only a lot noisier It seems many of the students were back from school. Music from loud speakers played at ridiculously high volume made it impossible for me to hear my own thoughts. Some of the occupants sat outdoors gisting and playing board games. The stares and gazes I was getting as Matthew and I walked to his room made me really uncomfortable. Some of his friends would call his name out loud and make annoying comments. I just kept a straight face and ignored. I couldn’t wait to get out of sight.
We climbed up the stairs into his room. It wasn’t much different from how I last saw it though it was a little untidy. I sat down on the side of the bed, anticipating what will happen next. Matthew handed me one of the nylon he was holding. It contained a plate of fried rice and ice cream in a small plastic can. This was exactly what I needed, I was famished already. Matthew headed for the door.
“I’m coming, I have to buy something from the chemist down the road,” Matthew said, making his way out of the room.
“Okay, but don’t leave me alone here for long” I replied, wondering what he had to buy at this time. What went wrong before his arrival?
I finished my meal hurriedly, Matthew still wasn’t back from the chemist. I laid back on the bed, and started typing on my phone again. I pinged Hannah and Sarah again, to find out where they were. This time, it took a while to get any response. I guess they were really busy. A reply came in after five minutes. It was from Sarah.. “We are at 5 Star Hotel”.
I have heard a lot about that hotel, it was one of the busiest and most expensive in the city. It had everything, from royal suites to Jacuzzi. If Sarah and Hannah were there, then a ‘big fish’ must be involved. “Who are you with”? I inquired “One senator like that” Sarah messaged back.
It was at this point in my life I realised the sort of people Sarah and Hannah were. My friends were cheap slots, they sell their body for money. I detested their kind of life, but I have covertly become like them. I tried to convince myself that I wasn’t like them, after all I wasn’t selling my body for money, I was in love. The sound of the door-knob turning interrupted my thoughts. Matthew had returned from the chemist, he carried a weird smile on his face. He locked the door, and sat right next to me on the bed.
We began a conversation about our childhood and parents. I told him how my parents had prevented me from having any kind of fun. He seemed very understanding, and as usual was full of encouraging words.
Matthew turned towards me, and began his usual charade of words with his soft appealing baritone voice. “Ruth, you know how much I love and cherish you. I’m willing to do anything for you. I’ll show you more love than your parents ever will”.
His words had the usual effect on me. I could feel that flutter in my tommy again. I made no attempt to resist as his lips touched mine. All the muscles in my body relaxed under his touch, I felt so weak and vulnerable and I eventually let myself loose for him. Someone I thought loves me the most in this world. I can’t tell how long it lasted, but I was glad it was over. The pain was rather excruciating. I sat up on the bed, and looked in between my laps. I noticed trickles of blood flowing. It was then it dawned on me, I had lost my virginity, my pride, my all. A new feeling of sadness and regret overwhelmed me. I suddenly wished I hadn’t, I had loosed something which I can never regain back forever. I looked towards Matthew, he was busy putting his clothes back on looking rather indifferent. His eyes caught my gaze, he must have noticed the apprehension on my face, as he moved closer and hugged me, but this time around the hug had no effect on me. I never felt anything within my tommy like I always did then when our body was in contact. This looks strange! What have I just gotten myself into?
I didn’t feel anything anymore, all that remained was slight regret. The whole episode did not seem right to me. His hug barely made any difference. Slowly I dressed myself up, and attempted to stand up. It was time to go home. As I stood up, I felt a Sharp pain down below, it made my walking steps awkward. I just prayed it stops before I get home. I managed to walk up to the door, which he held open for me. As we walked towards the car, I tried to walk as normally as possible despite the pain. I did not want to give the silly boys any impression. It obviously didn’t work though, as their jeering and senseless talk continued. As we drove away, I kept silent. A lot of thoughts filtered through my mind. What would change after today? Will my mum ever find out? Have I made a mistake? Only time will tell. The silence from Matthew was equally deafening. He seemed indifferent about my feelings.
Few blocks away from my house, I told him to pull over. I did not want any one around my neighbourhood to see me inside the car with a boy.
“Is anything the matter”? Matthew asked in a calm voice.
“I just don’t want to be seen coming out of your car” I answered.
“No not that, you seem tensed” he said.
“I’m scared, I feel a little different. What if some one finds out”, I said almost shedding tears.
He grabbed hold of my hands and pulled me closer to himself. “Ruth, I mean every word I said to you. I‘ll always love you”.
His words infused me with some courage. I felt much relieve. Perhaps they were the words I needed to hear at that moment.
“Learn to stand up to your parents, you are not a kid anymore” he said in a cold voice, letting go of me. I reached out and kissed his lips, before stepping out of the car, to make my way home.
The walk home was very uncomfortable, I felt a lot of pain in between my tights. My whole body ached, but I had to put on a bold face. My heart pounded as I approached the gate to my house.
The angry figure, my mum greeted me as soon as I opened the gate. She stood there as if she had been waiting for me.
“Where are you coming from young lady?” She asked, sounding really angry
“From the afternoon extra lectures I told you about”
“Shut up, your lectures ended since 3:30pm” she cut in
I was shocked at her response. I have been caught, and its only the first day. But how on earth did my mum find out that I closed earlier? I wondered with my mouth wide open. Is this woman a spirit? Sarah is not here to cover-up for me!🤔
“Go to your room and wait for me” she ordered.
As I walked into the house, my mum took a thorough objective look at me, frisking me with her eyes. She must have noticed that I wasn’t walking properly. I got to my room, took off my uniform, and emptied my school bag. I needed to take a bath.
My room door flew open suddenly. There was my mum again, with a pair of sterile gloves in her hand.